We Restore Hope -

At times in the beginning I wanted to just turn something over all right, most likely their chair, Due to the fear and anger I had when I walked in these doors. I was incapable of comprehending this well repeated suggestion. No one was explaining the process, just sharing as everyone understood what turning it over meant. As in the first step understanding my powerlessness over my addiction, yet again I was faced with relinquishing the control I had fought all my life to hold on too, even to death and back. To make this process even harder the slim faith I had was based in a non Judeo Christian belief which I was afraid would alienate me from those who were my last chance at having a productive life.

Through my sponsor I began to ask, those questions, how do I turn something over?, how do I know I turned something over?, what do I do when I take it back?

As always he smiled, He said the next time something comes up, ask yourself, is there anything I can do now or in the near future that will make the situation better for everyone not just myself? If I do take action am I doing it to make my life more comfortable or to truly make a positive difference in the world? Not that this instantly fixed everything, but it ran inline with my faith which believes for every action there is a positive or negative reaction. If I do have faith in something, and if I realize my powerlessness in any given situation and no positive can come from me in the situation, turning over to my faith or Karma is just leaving the situation alone and believing at least I will not be making it worse. This has begun to lighten my load and allow me to be more productive in the positive change I can effect these days. The more I have stepped aside the more I have been able to witness how spiritual energy will guide and protect me as long as I am willing to Turn It Over

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